Every thing and every one changes with time. Some for the better some for the worse. Change is the law of nature. Everyone knows it. Yet you will find people who haven't seen you in a while saying " You have grown so big, the last time i saw you you could barely walk" and I just smile, while in my head I am like, " Of course I have changed, I am 17 now. You din't expect me to crawl around till now did you ?!" But, when I think more clearly I realize that they aren't being stupid or senseless when they say such things, its just their way of acknowledging the fact that you have indeed changed.
Each one grows and becomes mature at their own pace. Slowly and steadily with age maturity sinks in. However, at times the change is fast and drastic and cannot be postponed. At times you just have to grow up, even though you are not quite ready to.
Thinking back to the year 2009, I was completely different from what I am today. I was living in a protective cocoon knit tightly by my Mother. I was safe and protected at all times. I could get away with almost anything, being senseless, stupid, rude and down right disrespectful to family members all cause of her. Cause she was always there to cover up, make all things right. I was also her pet. Never left her side. Never did a thing on my own. Completely dependent on her for every little thing. Even when she began getting ill, in my immatureness I still did not give her the rest she deserved. I regret that now. Took for granted that its temporary, she will be alright and the little responsibilities that I had been given would go back to her strong shoulders. What I din't realize was there was no going back. I wasn't going to get rid of the tini tiny jobs that I had to do. What i din't realize was that i'd have to take her place now, and be the woman of the house. Her demise was devastating and changed me to what I am today...
Each one grows and becomes mature at their own pace. Slowly and steadily with age maturity sinks in. However, at times the change is fast and drastic and cannot be postponed. At times you just have to grow up, even though you are not quite ready to.
Thinking back to the year 2009, I was completely different from what I am today. I was living in a protective cocoon knit tightly by my Mother. I was safe and protected at all times. I could get away with almost anything, being senseless, stupid, rude and down right disrespectful to family members all cause of her. Cause she was always there to cover up, make all things right. I was also her pet. Never left her side. Never did a thing on my own. Completely dependent on her for every little thing. Even when she began getting ill, in my immatureness I still did not give her the rest she deserved. I regret that now. Took for granted that its temporary, she will be alright and the little responsibilities that I had been given would go back to her strong shoulders. What I din't realize was there was no going back. I wasn't going to get rid of the tini tiny jobs that I had to do. What i din't realize was that i'd have to take her place now, and be the woman of the house. Her demise was devastating and changed me to what I am today...
Did not know u wrote this! Think u should pull links of these jottings on FB..."that is where everybody is" Roy D'Souza would put it so.
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