Winter!!! Yayyy!!!

Winter is officially here in Mumbai. (FINALLY) Winter is my most favorite season of all. Its perfect in all manners. It isn't too hot or too sunny like summer, and it isn't too wet and moist like monsoon.

Even though you do have a long vacation in summer, I still dislike the season. The sun is too harsh and gives me sunburns and headaches if I am out for too long. Also, it can get amazingly hot and sweaty. Monsoons are better, as long as I am safe and dry at home. Its a pain when you have to go out all decked up and there I water on the roads making you feet wet and slimy, and seeing the condition of Mumbai roads walking on the roads during monsoons is an herculean task in itself. Probability is wicked; the day I will carry an umbrella it will not pour but, the day I forget I will get drenched from head to toe. At those times I end up wishing for a bright hot sun :o Hence, winter to me is perfect. No fear of getting wet, no unbearable heat. Plus I get to drape my self in pretty shawls and scarves and wear warm hoodies which i don't get the wear the rest of the year. I love winter, though it does make my hair all frizzy and mad, I love it just the same. I shall get married in a winter month. YES, I definitely shall.

Until then, here is a list of things I simply love doing during these cold months. :) :)

1. Bike rides at night. The cold wind touching my face and making the tip of my nose cold.
2. Long walks and lots of talk with my friend.
3. Having lots ice-cream, even if it send a chill down my spine.
4. Sleeping. At anytime of that day, all snuggled up and warm under my blanket.
5. Drinking hot coffee. Some would prefer tea but, since I am not a tea person coffee works for me. 
6. Walking with socks at home. I know this one is weird, but hey, my feet are extremely sensitive to cold. Besides, I don't have carpeted floors at home, so the floor gets real cold. 

CHANGE and HOW

Every thing and every one changes with time. Some for the better some for the worse. Change is the law of nature. Everyone knows it. Yet you will find people who haven't seen you in a while saying " You have grown so big, the last time i saw you you could barely walk" and I just smile, while in my head I am like, " Of course I have changed, I am 17 now. You din't expect me to crawl around till now did you ?!" But, when I think more clearly I realize that they aren't being stupid or senseless when they say such things, its just their way of acknowledging the fact that you have indeed changed.

Each one grows and becomes mature at their own pace. Slowly and steadily with age maturity sinks in. However, at times the change is fast and drastic and cannot be postponed. At times you just have to grow up, even though you are not quite ready to.

Thinking back to the year 2009, I was completely different from what I am today. I was living in a protective cocoon knit tightly by my Mother. I was safe and protected at all times. I could get away with almost anything, being senseless, stupid, rude and down right disrespectful to family members all cause of her. Cause she was always there to cover up, make all things right. I was also her pet. Never left her side. Never did a thing on my own. Completely dependent on her for every little thing. Even when she began getting ill, in my immatureness I still did not give her the rest she deserved. I regret that now. Took for granted that its temporary, she will be alright and the little responsibilities that I had been given would go back to her strong shoulders. What I din't realize was there was no going back. I wasn't going to get rid of the tini tiny jobs that I had to do. What i din't realize was that i'd have to take her place now, and be the woman of the house. Her demise was devastating and changed me to what I am today...

Catching Up.

Gosh! I haven't blogged for over a month now, feels so long. Its not like I forgot I have a blog to write, its just that I didn't know what to write about. So, today I decided that even though I don't have something overly witty or funny to write of, I shall still write. Cause its my blog, and I can write what ever I want to.

To begin with, I will write about where I have been all this while. I have been here and there and here again. Here being my very own home, and there being my aunts place in Pune.  My stay in Pune was fun, and I was glad I decided to go there, as the climate in Pune was nice and cool, while Mumbai was a complete heater...

Over all the past month went rather smoothly, a pretty much normal month. Except for 1 major highlight, the birth of my cute little adorable little chubby little niece. :) :) Born on the 3th of November, Asma, is the newest member of my family, and also the cutest one. :)

Future Dreams.

I have never been particulary good at writing poems, I just can't get my words to rhyme. I still try though. This is something i wrote today evening, when i was a little low. I like to write something, anything actually when i am low. It somehow soothes me and helps me think better. I initially was of the mind to write something melodramatic or sad, but decided against it and wrote something a little brighter instead. Here it goes..

Future Dreams.

A sweet dream.
A distant thought.
Of a better life.
Of making a fresh new start.

Of forgetting the past.
Of having no regrets.
Of living each day,
like its the last.

Of finding happiness,
in the tiniest of things.
Of being joyful,
with every surprise that life brings.

Of moulding the future,
to our hearts content.
Of confidently,
walking ahead.

Diaper Fashion? Ya right!

So, i was reading the newspaper today, when i came across a Huggies Diaper ad. The thing that caught my attention though, was that it said ' Huggies Jeans Diaper Pants ', from there ' Huggies Fashion Jeans ' range ! Fashion diapers, are you kidding me!!!!

I mean, whats the point of having jeans diapers ? I know. Ripping parents pockets. And i also know that if not all, at least some parents will purchase this item in an attempt to make their young one " fashionable" and different from the rest. Ridiculous! Babies don't need it! They are adorable the way they are.

What, Huggies was not minting enough money already from all over the world, that they come up with such an idea to fool parents who are already giddy with happiness on the birth of their little one.

So, whats next? Huggies Skinny Jeans Diapers. :D Lets wait for it, you never know. It's a funny place this world.

Meanwhile, i have to admit their commercial is pretty cute. But, don't let it fool you !!

Snap-shot.

Snap-shot : An informal photograph taken quickly, typically with a hand held camera.

My house is strewn with " snap-shots ", of me, my parents, my aunts, my uncles, my cousins and their cousins, random people i don't know. Snap-shots of weddings, of birthdays, of naming ceremonies, of honeymoons and picnics. At times just of flowers or valleys. In short snap-shots of everything and every occurrence that a normal human life consists of.

Their must be over a thousand of them in my house. Usually, they are all kept neatly stacked in drawers, the reason for them being out is my Father's insistence of scanning each one of them since they have started to fade a little, especially the ones from his childhood days.

Snap-shots are memory preservers. The moment you see an old photograph, you are instantly taken back in time to when it was being clicked. And then you remember when and where it was clicked, and instantly you start narrating the incident related to the photograph to whoever will listen to you. They are great conversation starters i must say. For example, just the other day I was at my aunts place to pick up a couple of pictures for scanning that she has, and we were looking through them all and she had so much to say about them. Each photograph had a different story.

There are so many emotions different emotions that looking at photographs bring about. At times an elated smile or a joyous laugh. At times the feeling of loss when you come across a picture of one who is no more. So many emotions, so many memories. All definitely worth preserving.

I am glad my Father thought of scanning them so as to preserve them. For, it would be an utter shame to loose them to time.

Thought.

Giving up is easy, very easy. Staying put on the other hand, even when things are downer than down and life is treating you miserably is by far the toughest thing to do, even though it often presents you with the greatest reward. : )

A little something for my Mother.

Memories of you never leave me, and never shall. They dwell inside me, and always will. Some happy, some sad. Some good, some bad. Some which bring a smile. Others, which bring a tear. Some make me proud of the daughter that I was. While others make me wonder, "I wasn't all that good after all..." When I am low, thinking of you makes me cry, true. But, it also brings the feeling of a familiar warmth that your hugs used to. That's when i feel safe and sound, knowing that somehow you are still around. You were my best friend and still are. You get a first hand look of me and my life from up above. I miss you everyday. Every hour. Every second. And i like to believe that wherever you are you miss me too. :)

Though you are not here, you still are the best for me. Always will be. I miss you and I love you mamma. :) :*

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Back from the Dead !

Its been more than a year since I published my first post on this blog ! So much has changed in a year. I have changed in so many ways. Reading the post I made on 28th june 2010 makes me realize that. I feel I was a kid back than. Maybe, when I read this post a year later i might still feel the same. Life after all is a continuous process. Each day one grows a little bit smarter, a little bit tougher, a little more experienced and a little bit wiser. " Change is inevitable. "

There are 3 reasons for me to restart writing here.

1: The constant daily push from my father, to write and express my feelings and thoughts.

2: Seeing my friend write a blog out of her own accord. That is when I felt, " Dude, I was suppose to this." That was my second push.

3: This time I really REALLY want to do this !! From the depth of my heart :D

And hence, I believe that this time around I won't let my blog die. :)